Weigh-in #5

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     271.4 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 17.8 lbs

Current weight:                 254.2 lbs

BMI Status:                         Obese

The "week’s" change:

-4.8 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          14%

% Time Complete:       9.6%

Days left:                         330

I'm down almost 18 lbs, I'm still not working out like I said I would. My hips are -5 inches, and my thighs are -3 inches. The rest of my body is the same. Odd, yet great. 

Weigh-In #4

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     271.4 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 12.4 lbs

Current weight:                 259 lbs

BMI Status:                         Obese

The "week’s" change:

-1 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          10.2%

% Time Complete:       7.9%

Days left:                         336

Yep, I lost even less. I did yoga 3 times this week and was active indoors, and I lost less. I believe its because yesterday I broke down and had Taco Bell for lunch yesterday. last week I started stepping on the scale every day. So I know yesterday I was 257.2, today I'm 259. I was mad and sad and this makes me not want fast food anymore. That is the positive I'm taking away from this. 

The ice and snow made it easy to get away with not jogging and not working out as hard. But this week I'm jogging in the hall if I need to. I will keep the yoga, but not as a real workout. Yoga is a small workout but I need to bust my butt a little more than this. 

Next week is the first week of the new month, so I will be doing a Feb. evaluation. I want to feel like I want to look back and feel good, I fear I will not. Here is to Hope. 

My Plan 1.1.16

1. I will follow Nutrisystem  for 3 months.
   In that time I will plan out my weekly meals based on the foods I am given, and I will plan my families meals at the same time and try to make the same meals for them that I will be eating.
2. I will do everything I can each week to achieve my Goals
3. I will also start using a Fitness Planner for tracking my weight and journaling.
4. I will record both a written and a video weekly update of my weight and progress on Sundays.
5. I will become more active in my daily life, to include a 5 day workout plan. 
6. I will keep using the Mindset Makeover, and I will keep following the weekly lessons.
7. I will set 2 to 3 weekly goals as part of my weekly posts and weigh in.

Weigh-In #3

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     271.4 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 11.4 lbs

Current weight:                 260 lbs

BMI Status:                         Obese

The "week’s" change:

-1.4 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          9.4%

% Time Complete:       5.8%

Days left:                         344

First off, I am sorry I have not posted my Goal Update, I will do so today. Yesterday was Valentines Day and I had other things on my mind than writing. I am marking my agenda so as to not miss it next week. 

Now than.

I feel I have lost all of the easy weight I had (water shed mostly). Now I need to really work at this. I only did 2 workouts this week. I did one on the day I was having a hard time, and I worked hard for an hour. Today I jogged back and forth in my garage for a solid 45 min. I have no idea how far that is, so I am just counting it as prep. So this week I am not letting myself make up reasons to not workout in some way. I have Yoga, walking and jogging, and weights (I found my 1lb set and my 5lb set), and the internet is full of free workout videos I can cast to my TV. I WILL workout EVERY DAY. There is no reason not to. I like it, I feel better, I'm getting better fast, so its just my lazy ways that are stopping me. I can not be fit and lazy, my husband my get away with it but he had years in the armed forces to teach his body to stay lean and mean.  

As for my eating, this was a week of love, so there was a date night with Sushi with way less rice. I did eat some Sugar Free chocolate yesterday. I need to find some new fast veggies, and I need to break down and get some fat free ranch and other healthy dressings for my salads. Also I will get some sugar free creamer, so I can stop using the normal stuff. These things may only count for a few calories a day each, but if I have more than 1 coffee, or a salad with lunch and dinner, it adds up. I do now have alarms set on my phone for each meal and snack. This is not only to remind me to eat at snack time, but to keep me from eating when I don't need to. I'm taking control of my hunger and learning about Internal Hunger vs. External Hunger. 

I got some gum to help with the need to chew and for the sweet tooth attacks. I also got stuff to add to my water, I didn't really like it. I like water, Ice Cold Water. mmmmmm 

Feeling better

So I did work out for an hour, and I worked hard to some mood fitting music. Nothing like some Tool and NIN for jogging back and forth in a small space. I kept my heart rate up, and when I would walk/jog I found that I like slow jogging more than I ever thought. At the start of the hour I was jogging for the heat, by the end I was jogging for the wind on my skin. I think that is my target from now all. I finished my workout by taking the dog for a walk and my playlist started playing the Guardians of the Galaxy sound track, happy and uplifting. A great end.

Add to that a long talk with my loving husband, and some time with a friend, and I thing I'm going to make it. Today I hurt still from the workout, normal. I feel better. I'm not giving up.

I'm having a hard time

I'm doing well, I've lost 10 lbs really fast. but the new part of this is over, and now I am feeling down, and fat. I started doing videos about the food, just because there were not any out there when I was looking into joining Nutrisystem. But that means I do a video for each new food, and that means I have done 4 videos a day for 4 days. they are short, but I have to watch them before I post them. That means I have seen myself as I am, not as I am in my head. And I always though I looked ok, not a big round fat lady. But now I watch myself take a bite or 2 of each food, I see me eating. I bob my head to the tune of me eating if I like the food! How freaky is that?! I talk about food like its art, feeling out the textures and flavors. If I were not fat, I think I could eat for a living. How Bass Ackwards is that? 

I didn't know I was so big, I was 272 when this started. But I didn't see it. the mirror only shows a little of me, and I block out what I don't like. Now I see it, and I want to change it. But Its affecting me. I don't see why my husband would want to touch me, let alone think I'm sexy. I am grumpy, and moody, and today I just want to cry. I've started waking up at night and not being able to go back to sleep because before in my dreams I was thin. I dreamed myself how I want to look, now I dream me as fat, and alone. That may sound stupid to some people, but I am seeing the truth for the first time, and it keeps me up at night. 

Today is day 1 of my working out an hour everyday. I'm hoping it will help me work out how much I seem to hate fat me. Because its unfair to the people around me that are being so loving and kind for me to be moody and grumpy because I'm fat. 

How do I get past this? Or does it go away with the weight?

Journal #1, Goals and Motivation

GOAL 1:
Weigh 145 lbs or less.


WHY NOW?
I realized I'm slowly creeping my way up to the 300 lbs mark. I can't move fast to help when there is need to move fast (like to stop the dog from getting out of the yard). And I want to live to see my son grow up.


WHAT IS THE IMPORTANCE?
Being alive is important. Also feeling good and being happy are important.


HOW WILL MY LIFE BE IMPROVED?
I will feel better, I will be able to breath when I am active. I will feel good about how I look. I will be able to ware nice clothes. I will live longer. I will me more like the me I see in my head. It will be a positive impact on all parts of my life


Action Steps

•  Modify my eating habits with 3 month Nurtisystem to train my mind and body. 
•  Become active daily to begin to burn off fat.
•  Keep my blog and journal so that I can look back and keep moving ahead.
•  Learn skills to prevent falling back on old habits. 

Milestones:

1.  Get back to the 230 lbs that I was at before my son.
2.  Get below 200 lbs, brake that number line.
3.  Get below 180 lbs, the weight I was when I was 18.
4.  Get to my goal of 145 lbs!

Rewards:

1. Special Date Night with my hubby.
2. New Clothes. (this will repeat as I loss, but the first time is a big one) 
3.  Spa Day (I've always felt I was too fat)
4.  On top of finally being being 145 lbs, and all of the above, we will be saving to get me Abdominoplasty (tummy tuck). Something like $5k to $10k depending on things. 

GOAL 2:
Complete a fun 5k


WHY NOW?
I now live where there are all kinda of fun 5k events with foam, mud, dye, and water. I want to be able to do it so that we can do them as a family.


WHAT IS THE IMPORTANCE?
Being an active family help us bond and gives my son positive memories that will help him live a healthy life as well. Also, its fun!


HOW WILL MY LIFE BE IMPROVED?
Being fit enough to do a 5k is a marker for me to know that I can do other things as well. It a motivating health activity.


Action Steps

•  Use a Plan
•  Be consistent 
•  Pick a 5k for this summer and sign up
•  Make a jogging playlist to get me pumped

Milestones:

1. Jog 50 yards
2. Jog 100 yards
3. Jog 200 yards
4. Jog 1/4 mile
5. Jog 1/2 mile
6. Jog 1 mile
7. Jog 2 miles within APFT Standards
8. Finish 5k!

Rewards:

1. big hug
2. hot bath
3. hot bath
4. hot bath
5. hot bath and i don't cook dinner 
6. hot bath and i don't cook dinner 
7. hot bath and i don't cook dinner 
8. $200 to spend exclusively on self.

GOAL 3:
Strengthen my arms


WHY NOW?
Right now my right arm falls out of socket all the time, even in my sleep.


WHAT IS THE IMPORTANCE?
The doctor said that the muscles were too weak to hold in my arm. If I don't get the strength back soon, they want to open me up, and maybe put a pin in to hold my arm in. my dad has a pin in his arm, so does one of my older brothers. Its painful and cam tale 6 months to a year to recover. No thank you.


HOW WILL MY LIFE BE IMPROVED?
It will save me lots of pain, money, and time. Also, hot arms


Action Steps

•  Begin using resistance bands
•  Push-Ups
•  Ask Husband for more ideas
•  Get real weights

Milestones:

1. Can do 10 girl Push-Ups
2. Perform a Push-Up
3. Perform a Pull-Up
4. APFT Push-Up Standards passed with 60%

Rewards:

1. Massage from husband
2. Purchase Weight Set
3. Purchase Pull-Up Bar
4. Pole Dance Bar

GOAL 4:
Be able to belly dance.


WHY NOW?
After I had my son my left hip never went back into place, it means sometimes I have a limp, and it hurts a lot of the time.


WHAT IS THE IMPORTANCE?
Like my arm, I have been told by doctor that I need to strengthen my hip muscles and abs. There is little they can do to help me, hips are not something easy to fix.


HOW WILL MY LIFE BE IMPROVED?
 It turns out belly dancing is great for doing what I need, and it is fun and can be sexy. I would not be in pain all the time. It will help me look better. And other reasons that relate to my hubby. :3


Action Steps

• Watch YouTube Videos
• Create belly dancing multireddit
• Locate active local communicate + engage
• Practice Yoga using above techniques

Milestones:

1.  30 minutes of private belly dancing
2.  30 minutes of private belly dancing 3x week
3.  belly dance for my husband
4.  be able to belly dance for entertainment

Rewards:

1. Sign up for a class.
2. Get Belly dancing equipment
3. Get Belly dancing outfit 
4. Get Ribbon/Fire Dancing Equipment

These are the 4 goals I will be working on. They are just the first 4, but I feel they will be fun and I can start now.

Big Box

Today my box of Shelf Stable foods got here. I filmed an unboxing but it is really not the best but it is my first time. I had a friend help out, and I also got a few text messages while we were doing it. In short, don't judge me :3 But it is also an honest look at me, as I am, before I start.

First off, the Order comes with another Fast 5, and I had said I would do that again in 3 weeks. I will not be doing that. I decided to go ahead and open it, and just add the 7 days of meals to the meals I have I will not have the 7 snacks, but I get 7 of each of the shakes, so that is a pay off in my book. I didn't record the unboxing of that because I though it would just be more of the same. But the foods Were diffident. I do have pics of the foods and where they are set up for you. In the end, I have 25 each of Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinners that are Shelf Stable. Plus 18 Snacks, and 7 of each shake. Frozen Food Still to come.

So the F5 actually had 3 Muffins! It also had more bars, so I now have a total of 13 meal bars for breakfast. Of 25, 13 are bars. Even if I like then, that is a lot of meal bars. So I will change that up. I'm adding donuts and muffins and yummy things to the Next month.

yep, 10 meal bars there. I'm stuck on them because there are so many. that too will change next month. But there are a few things I know I like, and a few that I feel may be not to my liking. I am giving them a go no mater what. Online there is a score I can give each food, 1 to 5 stars. I will be keeping track. 

Ok, so dinners are looking good. the Joke here is I worked at a Domino's before this, and now Pizza is not a treat at all. and I have 5 so far. But I also have a lot of good looking things to try for the first time. Its a good round selection too. So far I'm feeling good about this. 

The only thins missing is the popcorn, it was off to the side and I didn't see it until I was putting it all away. But its a good mix of sweet and salty. There were none in the F5, so the numbers will not match, That just means I will skip a nigh snack from time to time. no big deal,

The shakes are the same ones as in the F5 I did before. I looked them up and they are not cheap, so I count this as a bonus. At first I didn't like the ZING shake, but after a few days it was good.

This is how I am going to store and organize my dry goods. The breakfast and snacks stack right now, and if next month that changes I can change how I do it. With less bars I may need both shelves for stored food and move the weeks planned meals into the kitchen.

Right now the plan is to bind the 3 mean meals for each day and store them in the 3 clear bins, and I can choose the snack that fits my mood. 

So I Start first thing in the Morning. I will update in weight (I know it went up... ) and I am planning on filming the first taste of each food. I have a plan in mind as to how to do that. Until tomorrow!

My Plan 1.0.0

1. I will follow Nutrisystem  for 3 months.
   In that time I will plan out my weekly meals based on the foods I am given, and I will plan my families meals at the same time and try to make the same meals for them that I will be eating.
2. I will losses 2 lbs a week.
3. I will also start using a Fitness Planner from now on.
4. I will record weekly updates of my weight and progress.
5. I will become more active in my daily life, walking, jogging, working out, and moving more.
6. I will start the Mindset Makeover tonight, and I will keep following the weekly lessons.
7. I will set 2 to 3 weekly goals as part of my weekly posts and weigh in.

As I work through my planner and the weekly Mindset Makeover I will revisit this and update it.

My Plan 1 (the first month) .0 (number of revisions) .0 (number on days into the stated month)

End of day 3

First off, yesterday was a good day. I felt good by the end of it, and I've started taking my gummy vitamins and gummy fiber at night, and its like a mini snack. The food for day 2 was great, and so far there is nothing I would not eat again. But I've looked into ways to make it my self and that is going to be hard. 

Day 3 was a hard day, today I made banana bread with nuts and chocolate chips. I also had a slice, or 2. I know I know... I cut other foods out to try and make up for the calories but in the end I cheated. Now I need to took at it, admit it, and get over it. It was good, and it made a loop hole that I had to deal with for the rest of the day. as so and I had the first bit I found my self talk was making it ok to have more. After slice #2 i realized how bad this was. I then had to have a constant fight with my inner voice, it kept telling me that I already cheated, and that I may as well have a full dinner too. NO! Hell its still going off, telling me that the strawberry shortcake has to be tossed in the trash if it's not eaten tonight, and how bad that is. I just have to keep in mind that if I eat it I'm tossing my heath in the trash instead (I just told my husband that, he tossed it for me and told me he loved me).

I also started walking the dog yesterday, and today I did 20 sit-ups. I know its not a lot, its not the 30 min a day I should be getting, but its a start. I also dance around with Zed off and on all day. But I want to work on getting stronger as well as smaller. Hell, if I stayed big, but were fit with abs and viking arms, I would be ok with that. Being small is not my goal, being healthy is, living to see my grande-babies, having a body that makes me feel good is my goal.

So tomorrow is a new day, I will buckle back down, I will also leave the house for more than just walking the dog. I have to get some things ready for my brother and his son to get here, so I will be moving around a lot. I like the foods, so I enjoy eating the meals that are planned for me, and I am enjoying knowing that I'm doing this right. Yes i messed up today, but that's part of this. 

My hubby and I have talked about the cost of keeping it going with Nutrisystem, and 2 things play into the yes or no of it. 1: Will i stick with it, or if this a faze. 2: Does the cost of the food work for our family knowing we still need to buy my veggies AND food for 2 grown men and 2 growing boys under age 3. 

The first is more about my dedication to my self than anything. I WANT to lose this 100+ lbs NOW. This year, not next year. If i had stuck with it before I would be done by now! This feels motivating! So than my real problem is the cost. 

The plan is $329.99 for 4 weeks, plus another Fast 5 and a free extra week for 3 months (a deal that came with this kit). OK, so for 3 months there would 16 weeks worth of food for about $990, So the first 4  months (a month of extra food) would cost about $9 a day, and about $12 a day after that. So I need to find a way to make up the cost of the $330 a month before I can start. OK, that's a new project for me... why does getting healthy cost so much! 

Here were go again

I'm 30 yrs old and 271.4 lbs female just beginning weight loss journey. I have 100 lbs to loss minimum. My End goal is to weigh 145 lbs again, but my first goal is to loss that first 5 lbs. I'm starting the Nutrisystem Fast 5[1] today, I got my 7 day meal kit [2] at Sam's Club. I did some looking into it and Nutrisystem have a mixed audience as far as I can tell. The people that stick to it 100% do well bet give up a lot. While the people that mix in there home cooked meals and snacks stop gaining, but don't loss a lot and are upset.

Going into this I know its going to be hard, and its not over night, but I want to live a good life, and see my kids grow up, I want to stop feeling like everyone is looking at me and seeing the fat chick and making judgement while I'm playing with my 1 1/2 yr old. Last week a little kid told me I was too big to play at the park, and I wanted to leave, go home, hide, cry, and yell about how mean the world is. But I told her "I promise not to brake anything" and I kept playing with my boy.

My problem is I'v been "working on losing weight" for 8 years, and I GAINED 60 lbs! My husband is thin as a rail no mater what he eats, with a 6 pack to boot without ever working out, AT 32!! Jerk better have passed that to our son. :p Anyhow, I feel alone. I don't know very many people in Nashville (I'm not from here), so I get discouraged easily.

Does anyone have any tips for when I'm ready to give up and eat my feelings?

mini posts ok?

Again, my charts show i need to eat more... that will forever tick me off. tell me i'm fat because i eat too little... bull crap. but ok, i will add more good food to my meals, toss in a V-8 or 3. Also I'll fight my emotions and suck it up. Turn on some music, and move on. anyone have a favored workout song list?

also, are the short burst posts like this ok? With Zed, I don't feel like i can just sit and write out everything in one go. so pounding it out in mini form may end up being what i do. kinda like long facebook posts, but not... i don't really feel like that is the place for this. also i can come here are all my weight loss stuff is just here, no game crap or other posts to weed out to find what i am looking for. sound good?

also, i have been working out more, and now i just want to sleep more. is that going to be the thing now? before i did that, but it turns out i was also making a baby, so idk if this is just another thing. lol

o, also i found where my hidden calories were, i eat a LOT of nuts and peanut butter, any reason for craving nuts? or is that for the milk?

Week 13 Weigh-in

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 24.4 lbs

Current weight:                 240.6 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-2.2 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          12.3%

% Time Complete:         10.4%

Days left:                         728

So I realized that my miles update on here anyway so no need to repeat. I really need to find my motivation. I lost over 2lbs this week so I should be happy, but I don’t feel too happy. I hate this season…  my head hurts and I need coffee. I’m going to go play minecraft… sorry everyone. I failed to post.  I did change my calorie needs to 1310 – 1660 per day.  So I should keep losing. I’ll keep it up.  The down feeling should go away soon, about the same time as the headaches thin down too. Funny how my mood changes everything. 

Week 12 Weigh-in

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 22.2 lbs

Current weight:                 242.8 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-1.8 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          18.5%

% Time Complete:          9.7%

Days left:                         728

I’m sorry I’m late. I’ve been fighting with seasonal depression, add that to not knowing anyone in town, hiding from the rodeo that worked it's way into a nightmare last night, and toss in that time of the month (sorry to the men) and you have someone that feels very down. I have lost 1.8 lbs even with it being “shark week” (as I call it), so I should be happy. I’m almost out of the 240’s so that should be helping. I’ve lost 22+ lbs, and yes my clothes do fit better. But I still feel fat. When I take a bath I add bubbles to hide my fat. Know there is 20+ lbs less, but there is still 90+ lbs extra that I, and others, see.

When I was at PAX I stood in line for myself and others, kinda like a “gofer”, for food and coffee and other things. and when I would walk away with the stuff for 3 people I would get looks. That look that screams “you pig, going to go fatten up some more?” and they did nothing to hide it. Why should they? I leave the coffee shop with my coffee, and Shaun’s coffee (the same thing), and come back for a 3^rd for a friend (still the same). Some of the same people were there and one looked at me and said “jesus…” just that.

The thing is at the time I didn’t really care too much. But now that my mood is dark all the little things are trying to suffocate me. Yes Shaun is a loving husband but there is not a lot he can do. as I said, I have seasonal depression, and I live in Oregon. But yesterday I made my mind up. I may have seasonal depression, but seasonal depression does not have to have me. I don’t have to let it take over. I have a very dark and sad past that makes for the dreams that make you not want to sleep. But I dealt with all that. I don’t need to deal with it every fall. So I need to focus, change my thoughts, and keep my brain busy.

Shaun has been getting on to me for not writhing more, and I stopped logging food, and walking. I’m eating better, but that’s it. We had a talk, by that I mean he told me what was what and I said nothing because he is totally right and I needed to hear it. So I need to get back into my lists, logs, and walk daily. So the next week will be full of my thoughts, feeling, and random stuff. Next week’s weigh-in will have my miles for the week and my total. I said I was going to walk it off, and Shaun got me the tools to do it. I can’t just stop walking. So I’m moving that up in my day on my list of things to do. Coffee and a bite to eat, then walk. Everything else can be done after that. And no youtube walks, or tv type stuff for the first week. Music only! I love to walk to music, so I’ll walk to music.  

So I’ll stop here. There will be more to come this week. So I’ll talk at you latter. 

Week 10 Weigh-in

Week 10 WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 19 lbs

Current weight:                 246.0 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

+0.4lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          15.8%

% Time Complete:          8.1%

Days left:                          741

So I was going to do a “full weigh-in” (weight & measurements) but I just got back from travil and my body is all puffy. So I don’t think it’s a good idea to measure a puffy body, but next Monday I will do the full thing. I also gained 0.4 lb, but that’s great when you think about it. I was at PAX, I was not eating like I should have been. There was some fast food, and drinking, and salty fried stuffs. Not at lot, but some. And yes my body is all puffed up with water and in some pain. I have no idea how many miles I walked each day, but it was a lot.

Last night I told Shaun that I knew I had gained something like 2 lbs over the weekend. I just knew it. There was no way I for me to have Starbucks cookie crumble for breakfast, and cheese pizza for dinner, with nothing in the afternoon, and no have my body just freak out on me. I drank water like a fish and almost never had to pee. So I know I’m holding some water. But that’s fine, this week I will be fixing all of that! I’m just happy I only gained less than half a pound.

Any hoo I’m going to go dig up some food. Drink a lot of water. That kind of stuff. We will see how the week fairs. 

Week 9 Weigh-in

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 19.4 lbs

Current weight:                 245.6 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-3.2lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          16.2%

% Time Complete:          6.9%

Days left:                        750

The Last time I remember weighing in at about this weight was the week I was sick and could not eat anything for 3 days, I was also going to water workouts 3-5 times a week before that. So that means a few things to me. I really am doing this right. I know it seems like I find that out every week but it feels that way still. And the other thing is that I'm doing this without feeling like I’m getting my but kicked. No I didn’t make my 11 mile goal, but I’m ok with that and I will keep trying this week. I’ve had a lot going on and I’m not having the same amount of time to myself as I normally have. So I’m doing what I can when I can. That and I don’t know how to log what I am doing.

You see a friend moved in a bit of a rush for a new job. And I’m cleaning their house now. But how do I log “mopped for 3 hours”? I know I got one hell of a workout. I could feel it in all of my body. And that was just the mopping, there is a lot to cleaning in a house this big to get it ready to hand over the keys. So that is taking up some time.

O and I would have posted more last week but our internet was down and I kinda forgot I could use my phone until just now. Oops. But no really we had a bit of an information blackout here for a few days. And when it all came back up for some reason my computer didn’t want to let me do anything. So for 2 days I thought it was just the net, then I had to do a load of crap to get it working again yesterday. So, woot I’m back! I know I’m silly but I need my internet fix man, I need to tap into my youtube. Lol

Any hoo I lost 3.2 lbs this last week. That’s 19.4 lbs in 2 months! Now I’m stepping into week 9 and I think I’m starting to get the hang of this. Now that I’m all hooked up to my net again I’ll keep using SparkPeople.com to track everything, and DailyMile.com for my miles walked tracker. I like seeing what I eat and do, it makes me think about it more that if I was just eating.

So to wrap things up, I am doing will. I have a house to finish plus my normal stuff. I’m still eating good and loving it. And I lost over 3 lbs in a week. I’m very happy about things right now. I feel good! Soon I will be able to see it more. I’m going to be so happy when I NEED new clothes because these ones will be falling off. It’s not too far off, but we will see. That will be a big day and I will make a big deal out of it. I know Shaun it already thinking about it, we were talking about it the other day. I am so very thankful to have him by my side.

Ok got to go. Ttfn!

Week 8 Weigh-in

       First off I’m sorry its been a while from my last real post. I have not fallen off the wagon, I just fell in love with tekkit (a mod pack for minecraft). I have slowed on the walking, I can see that. But that is stopping this week. There is no reason not to pass my 10 mile a week marker when I have a treadmill in my face. So there you go. That is my goal this week, along with sticking with heathy eating and tracking my foods, walk 11 miles or more before next Monday.

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 16.2 lbs

Current weight:                 248.8 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-2lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          13.5%

% Time Complete:          6.1%

Days left:                        757

       Today is the start of week 8 for me, and I’m not only still with it, I’m still losing weight every week, about 2 lbs a week. That’s not a lot, but at the same time it stacks up. So I’m very happy with this trend and I will not kill it by trying to push it more. It I start pushing for 3 lbs a week I may fail and make it harder than it needs to be. Right now it’s not hard at all, I have started to just live this way. It’s nice, and having Shaun’s help and encouragement makes all the difference. I don’t know what I would do without him. Add to that the encouragement of all of you, my friends and workout buddies, it’s no wonder it’s so easy to stick with this. Thank you everyone, I’ve lived the “fat life” for so long that I had started to think that I would never be anything but a fat chick. I may still be a fat chick for now, but I’m well on my way to chubby. Lol one step at a time, right? I’m feeling good today, and I hope you are too! 

Here's What's New

This may sound bad but today was the first day I didn’t need to hold my tummy back with my hands to read the scale! The treadmill is a big help. I can set my laptop up there and watch YouTube videos while I walk, or have my favorite music blasting at me. I tried playing minecraft while walking, but when I walk try to walk left or right in the game my body would try to do the same. So I need to train my brain a bit so that will work.

Watermelon is like my favorite snack now, I can eat tons (2 cups) and it’s less than 100 calories. I don’t know about you, but for me 2 cups fills me way up, Shaun eats my last few bites most times. And the watermelon we got at the farmers market is so sweet and yummy, ¼ of it is enough to both of us. I eat so many fruits and veggies now, it’s nuts. I totally get it now, the fruits and veggies fill me up and I don’t fill up on junk, fat, and carbs.

We even when out to eat one time this weekend, taco bell. I ordered the new burrito that they say you’ll love it or they replace it. Well they replaced it. It didn’t have any taste to me, it was just a wet burrito. So I got a crunch wrap, and I couldn’t eat it all. That means my stomach is smaller. That’s a good thing. Now normally I go the thing with the most meat and cheese, I didn’t like the crunch wrap b/c it had so much “green crap” on it. But this time it was the first thing I wanted. And it was so good, and I’m not craving it anymore. So that’s another good thing

O and this SparkPeople.com site is great. I’m totally a mini quest girl, and I love points, and that is what this site is all about. I love it! If anyone wants to join me let me know. My user name is JBrasington on that site. I know, not very creative but it’s me and I’m very proud of my new last name. Feel free to share any sites or tools you have found with me. I’m thinking about writing a mini blog about each one I know about and have tried. That way others can pick the one that would work best for them. I know that finding the program that works for you is important. I think I may have found mine.  Only time will tell.

I walked 10 miles last week, and I did walk 5 days, but not the min 2 miles. But I did have a 4 mile day, so that’s good. This week I will try for 10 miles or more. I would like to pass the 10 mile mark. I have hit that mark more than ones.

I will keep up the new way of eating, I have a few days left on my 14 day plan, and I will keep it up after. I did check out the south beach diet book, it has cooking ideas in it too. I haven’t pulled up the old menus yet. SparkPeole has a menu plan too that makes a shopping list. The only problem I’ve had so far is that we’ve spent almost $300 on food for 2 weeks. That’s a lot. Veggies and fruits are not good after long. so I have to get them weekly, and I forgot some things when we went shopping because I was flustered at have an overflowing shopping cart. And yes we still have food, but we are out of a few things that make the meal. so I need to play with things so that I can use what we have.

Also I got my gummy vitamins today. So I think that will help not only with my health, but with stopping food cravings. I also got a blood glucose tester for not that much. So not I can test when I feel that panic shaky feeling, and know if I need to eat or what, I stopped drinking coffee b/c I get shaky and it feels kinda like that start of low blood sugar.

But the really really big thing, Shaun when ahead and got me the dishwasher! I love him so much. So now that’s less time standing, more time walking. O man lets not play down the treadmill. That is going to make this  for me. so unless I’m sick, there is no reason not to walk. Rain, snow, 120 degree heat, hail, none of that can stop me now. Just my head hurting… but I think that will start to be less. It will never go away all the way, but as my health gets better I think I will have more pain free days.

As for my walk a mile test the results are mixed. So I will try 3 tests, on 3 days, and give the average and I’m not fit enough for the step test. I can’t take my heart rate myself b/c its too fast. But this week I will keep up on the push-ups and crunches too, 

Good night for now.  

Change

I need to stop some bad habits now before they hurt me.

1)      Weigh myself one time a week, and only one time a week! I will start weigh myself on Monday mornings, and put the scale out of site until the next Monday. Seeing my weight change every day does not help me in the long run. I may have weighed a pound less yesterday, but in the long run it only maters what I lose in a week, and keep off.

2)      I will measure my waist, hips, thigh, upper arm, and calf monthly. Starting the 1^st of every month regardless of what day of the week it is. I will also go and get a real measuring tape for this today.

3)      Every morning I will log my log my quality of sleep, stress lvl, energy lvl, and self-esteem lvl. I need to be mindful of these and note any patterns I find. This will help me eliminate events that will make this all harder than it needs to be.

4)      Sunday can be a day of rest but cannot be a day off. no more donuts at church, and I will walk/workout at least 10 minutes.

5)      I will shoot for 2 miles a day, for real, not 1.79 miles, 2 miles.

6)      If I feel sick or my head hurts I will still get up and walk for 10 minutes EVERY day, not days off. I have a feeling that once I’m out there I will find that I can walk more.

7)      I will take self fitness tests this week. There are 4, and I will do a “pushup test” Monday, a “crunch test” Tuesday, a “3-minute step test” Wednesday, and a “1-mile walk test” Thursday. Each day after the test I will post a link to direction for each test and how I did.

8)      I will start my days with upbeat music to get me in to mood to move.

That’s all for now. I will post my weigh-in, changes, and last week’s goal evaluating  after my walk. (the music really helps!)

Lets be real about this

Yes, when I first found that I lost 5 lbs I jumped for joy. But I’m going to be real about this. I know that I lost a lot in lbs, but not in inches. I also know that I lost that much because I was sick. Remember that Fat%/Lean% loss I talked about? Well not walking, and not being able to eat, means I lost lean mass too. So this week I will be walking and eating again. So next week I don’t think I’ll lose as much. Shaun and I were talking about it and agreed that I may not lose anything, because I’ll be gaining that lean mass back by walking. He thinks I will lose fat, but my total weight may go up a lb or more. I Hope not.

Also, I was a day off on my shopping plans. So today I shop, tomorrow I start my meal plan. I have it all worked out, and I’m excited.  I am also working on a plan for this weekend. We have lots of big plans for this weekend that have us out of the house. So I need to have a plan for things like food at a party, eating out, and eating on the go. I will not be cooking for myself over the weekend, and we will be eating out.  So I need to be ready to deal with that. Portion control, self control, options.

I know I should be taking my vitamins, I paid quite a bit for them. But I can’t keep them down. That part of my brain that says that I have a whole bottle, and I can waste them or the money I paid for them, is the same part that tells me to keep eating when I’m full for the same reasons. So I need to retrain that part of my brain. I want to try the gummies, but first I need to fix this. So I called the number on the bottle and told them what is going on, and counted the pills left and told them I have 42 of 50 left and I can’t take them. So after telling a few questions they are sending me a coupon for a free bottle of ant one-a-day I want, even gummies. Done and done. I can let these go and not feel bad, and no money waist because I don’t have to pay to replace them.

I’m not cheap, but I’m not made of money. That means that money will come up from time to time. I know that for some people a few dollars may not mean a lot. But for me I need to think about where that would be going if it were not going to this. Events like this weekend, we have a birthday party to go to Friday night, and a geek/nerd music show both Saturday and Sunday nights. The shows are $5-$10 per person, cheap. The party is cost of food/drinks, cheap. But the gas to get to Portland, then Salem, back to Portland, and Salem once more, Portland again, and home to Pendleton, that’s not cheap at all. That’s 614 miles! 11 hours and 36 minutes of driving! (So says Google maps) So yes, I will be trying to save money so that we have the gas we need.

What that also means is I need to bring my stretch bands with me so I can do something in the car. That is 11.5 hours of sitting! People don’t think about that a lot, how many hours a day do we sit, at work, at school, at home (on the computer), and in cars/busses. How much time have I spent on my ass? And I have the nerve to wonder how it got this big? Jeez! I want one of the fancy treadmill desks, so that I can walk while I am on my laptop. If I had had one from a teed on, I would be so slim and fit. We need them in schools! If 2 of my classes in high school had them, and I had to walk all that class time, I would not be this fat person.  But they are not cheap. They should be! They should be no more than $100, not $400- $2,000!

 I should start a kick start for fit America! Find a company to make the treadmill desks for cheap, make a fit library/gym, and make it about being fit, not making money off people that need help. I’ve gone to “Free” clinics (they are not free), and all they would do is say I was fat, lose weight and then they would help.  Well why not help me lose weight? Why send me away sick? If I’m sick because I’m fat, help me not be fat so I cannot be sick. Where is the free fitness clinic? So many people want to bitch about all the fat people in the US, but they make getting fit cost a lot too. Why eat fast food? Because a meal can be as cheap as $3, it’s hot, and they put stuff in it to make you crave it. Fast food is a cheap drug, and yes it kills. Yet it’s pushed on very young kids. That is wrong with the country??