Weigh-In #3

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     271.4 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 11.4 lbs

Current weight:                 260 lbs

BMI Status:                         Obese

The "week’s" change:

-1.4 lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          9.4%

% Time Complete:       5.8%

Days left:                         344

First off, I am sorry I have not posted my Goal Update, I will do so today. Yesterday was Valentines Day and I had other things on my mind than writing. I am marking my agenda so as to not miss it next week. 

Now than.

I feel I have lost all of the easy weight I had (water shed mostly). Now I need to really work at this. I only did 2 workouts this week. I did one on the day I was having a hard time, and I worked hard for an hour. Today I jogged back and forth in my garage for a solid 45 min. I have no idea how far that is, so I am just counting it as prep. So this week I am not letting myself make up reasons to not workout in some way. I have Yoga, walking and jogging, and weights (I found my 1lb set and my 5lb set), and the internet is full of free workout videos I can cast to my TV. I WILL workout EVERY DAY. There is no reason not to. I like it, I feel better, I'm getting better fast, so its just my lazy ways that are stopping me. I can not be fit and lazy, my husband my get away with it but he had years in the armed forces to teach his body to stay lean and mean.  

As for my eating, this was a week of love, so there was a date night with Sushi with way less rice. I did eat some Sugar Free chocolate yesterday. I need to find some new fast veggies, and I need to break down and get some fat free ranch and other healthy dressings for my salads. Also I will get some sugar free creamer, so I can stop using the normal stuff. These things may only count for a few calories a day each, but if I have more than 1 coffee, or a salad with lunch and dinner, it adds up. I do now have alarms set on my phone for each meal and snack. This is not only to remind me to eat at snack time, but to keep me from eating when I don't need to. I'm taking control of my hunger and learning about Internal Hunger vs. External Hunger. 

I got some gum to help with the need to chew and for the sweet tooth attacks. I also got stuff to add to my water, I didn't really like it. I like water, Ice Cold Water. mmmmmm 

Big Box

Today my box of Shelf Stable foods got here. I filmed an unboxing but it is really not the best but it is my first time. I had a friend help out, and I also got a few text messages while we were doing it. In short, don't judge me :3 But it is also an honest look at me, as I am, before I start.

First off, the Order comes with another Fast 5, and I had said I would do that again in 3 weeks. I will not be doing that. I decided to go ahead and open it, and just add the 7 days of meals to the meals I have I will not have the 7 snacks, but I get 7 of each of the shakes, so that is a pay off in my book. I didn't record the unboxing of that because I though it would just be more of the same. But the foods Were diffident. I do have pics of the foods and where they are set up for you. In the end, I have 25 each of Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinners that are Shelf Stable. Plus 18 Snacks, and 7 of each shake. Frozen Food Still to come.

So the F5 actually had 3 Muffins! It also had more bars, so I now have a total of 13 meal bars for breakfast. Of 25, 13 are bars. Even if I like then, that is a lot of meal bars. So I will change that up. I'm adding donuts and muffins and yummy things to the Next month.

yep, 10 meal bars there. I'm stuck on them because there are so many. that too will change next month. But there are a few things I know I like, and a few that I feel may be not to my liking. I am giving them a go no mater what. Online there is a score I can give each food, 1 to 5 stars. I will be keeping track. 

Ok, so dinners are looking good. the Joke here is I worked at a Domino's before this, and now Pizza is not a treat at all. and I have 5 so far. But I also have a lot of good looking things to try for the first time. Its a good round selection too. So far I'm feeling good about this. 

The only thins missing is the popcorn, it was off to the side and I didn't see it until I was putting it all away. But its a good mix of sweet and salty. There were none in the F5, so the numbers will not match, That just means I will skip a nigh snack from time to time. no big deal,

The shakes are the same ones as in the F5 I did before. I looked them up and they are not cheap, so I count this as a bonus. At first I didn't like the ZING shake, but after a few days it was good.

This is how I am going to store and organize my dry goods. The breakfast and snacks stack right now, and if next month that changes I can change how I do it. With less bars I may need both shelves for stored food and move the weeks planned meals into the kitchen.

Right now the plan is to bind the 3 mean meals for each day and store them in the 3 clear bins, and I can choose the snack that fits my mood. 

So I Start first thing in the Morning. I will update in weight (I know it went up... ) and I am planning on filming the first taste of each food. I have a plan in mind as to how to do that. Until tomorrow!

My Plan 1.0.0

1. I will follow Nutrisystem  for 3 months.
   In that time I will plan out my weekly meals based on the foods I am given, and I will plan my families meals at the same time and try to make the same meals for them that I will be eating.
2. I will losses 2 lbs a week.
3. I will also start using a Fitness Planner from now on.
4. I will record weekly updates of my weight and progress.
5. I will become more active in my daily life, walking, jogging, working out, and moving more.
6. I will start the Mindset Makeover tonight, and I will keep following the weekly lessons.
7. I will set 2 to 3 weekly goals as part of my weekly posts and weigh in.

As I work through my planner and the weekly Mindset Makeover I will revisit this and update it.

My Plan 1 (the first month) .0 (number of revisions) .0 (number on days into the stated month)

End of day 3

First off, yesterday was a good day. I felt good by the end of it, and I've started taking my gummy vitamins and gummy fiber at night, and its like a mini snack. The food for day 2 was great, and so far there is nothing I would not eat again. But I've looked into ways to make it my self and that is going to be hard. 

Day 3 was a hard day, today I made banana bread with nuts and chocolate chips. I also had a slice, or 2. I know I know... I cut other foods out to try and make up for the calories but in the end I cheated. Now I need to took at it, admit it, and get over it. It was good, and it made a loop hole that I had to deal with for the rest of the day. as so and I had the first bit I found my self talk was making it ok to have more. After slice #2 i realized how bad this was. I then had to have a constant fight with my inner voice, it kept telling me that I already cheated, and that I may as well have a full dinner too. NO! Hell its still going off, telling me that the strawberry shortcake has to be tossed in the trash if it's not eaten tonight, and how bad that is. I just have to keep in mind that if I eat it I'm tossing my heath in the trash instead (I just told my husband that, he tossed it for me and told me he loved me).

I also started walking the dog yesterday, and today I did 20 sit-ups. I know its not a lot, its not the 30 min a day I should be getting, but its a start. I also dance around with Zed off and on all day. But I want to work on getting stronger as well as smaller. Hell, if I stayed big, but were fit with abs and viking arms, I would be ok with that. Being small is not my goal, being healthy is, living to see my grande-babies, having a body that makes me feel good is my goal.

So tomorrow is a new day, I will buckle back down, I will also leave the house for more than just walking the dog. I have to get some things ready for my brother and his son to get here, so I will be moving around a lot. I like the foods, so I enjoy eating the meals that are planned for me, and I am enjoying knowing that I'm doing this right. Yes i messed up today, but that's part of this. 

My hubby and I have talked about the cost of keeping it going with Nutrisystem, and 2 things play into the yes or no of it. 1: Will i stick with it, or if this a faze. 2: Does the cost of the food work for our family knowing we still need to buy my veggies AND food for 2 grown men and 2 growing boys under age 3. 

The first is more about my dedication to my self than anything. I WANT to lose this 100+ lbs NOW. This year, not next year. If i had stuck with it before I would be done by now! This feels motivating! So than my real problem is the cost. 

The plan is $329.99 for 4 weeks, plus another Fast 5 and a free extra week for 3 months (a deal that came with this kit). OK, so for 3 months there would 16 weeks worth of food for about $990, So the first 4  months (a month of extra food) would cost about $9 a day, and about $12 a day after that. So I need to find a way to make up the cost of the $330 a month before I can start. OK, that's a new project for me... why does getting healthy cost so much! 

Here were go again

I'm 30 yrs old and 271.4 lbs female just beginning weight loss journey. I have 100 lbs to loss minimum. My End goal is to weigh 145 lbs again, but my first goal is to loss that first 5 lbs. I'm starting the Nutrisystem Fast 5[1] today, I got my 7 day meal kit [2] at Sam's Club. I did some looking into it and Nutrisystem have a mixed audience as far as I can tell. The people that stick to it 100% do well bet give up a lot. While the people that mix in there home cooked meals and snacks stop gaining, but don't loss a lot and are upset.

Going into this I know its going to be hard, and its not over night, but I want to live a good life, and see my kids grow up, I want to stop feeling like everyone is looking at me and seeing the fat chick and making judgement while I'm playing with my 1 1/2 yr old. Last week a little kid told me I was too big to play at the park, and I wanted to leave, go home, hide, cry, and yell about how mean the world is. But I told her "I promise not to brake anything" and I kept playing with my boy.

My problem is I'v been "working on losing weight" for 8 years, and I GAINED 60 lbs! My husband is thin as a rail no mater what he eats, with a 6 pack to boot without ever working out, AT 32!! Jerk better have passed that to our son. :p Anyhow, I feel alone. I don't know very many people in Nashville (I'm not from here), so I get discouraged easily.

Does anyone have any tips for when I'm ready to give up and eat my feelings?

March Goals

I promise to make healthy and positive choices so that I can live a healthy lifestyle and reach my goals.
3-5-2014

My weigh in days are Wednesday the 5th, 12th, 19th, and 26th.

March Goals:

1. Lose 10 lbs
2. Do 5 daily 10 minute workout videos a week
3. Log weight every Wednesday, and no "peaking"
4. Use http://www.sparkpeople.com/ to track food and workout everyday
5. Hang out with a friend at least 1 time per week RIL
6. Drink at least 8 cups of water per day
7. Read 1/2 of "This Star Won't Go Out" by the end of the month
8. Fallow the 28-day Workout Boot Camp Plan
9  Attend weekly "meeting" for emotional heath with friends
10. No Yelling

Weigh-in:
5th: 248.6


Goal: -10
So far: -0.0

I'm Back! (mini post)

I have been "away" for about 16 months. Why? I had a baby boy! So he is about 7 1/2 months old and I feel like I can start working on my weight. The sad thing is I gained back some of the weight I had lost before. I gained 11 lbs! not a lot, but when your trying to lose weight it sucks to lose it more than once. So today (2*26*14) marks my fresh start. 

Mini goal: lose said 11 lbs! 

As a side not I'm still breastfeeding my son and the cravings are hard core. So if anyone out there has any tips to help out I'd love to read them! 

New Start Weight: 247 lbs

New End Goal: 160 lbs or less

I'll post more later when I can find time.


Thanks Everyone!

Week 10 Weigh-in

Week 10 WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 19 lbs

Current weight:                 246.0 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

+0.4lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          15.8%

% Time Complete:          8.1%

Days left:                          741

So I was going to do a “full weigh-in” (weight & measurements) but I just got back from travil and my body is all puffy. So I don’t think it’s a good idea to measure a puffy body, but next Monday I will do the full thing. I also gained 0.4 lb, but that’s great when you think about it. I was at PAX, I was not eating like I should have been. There was some fast food, and drinking, and salty fried stuffs. Not at lot, but some. And yes my body is all puffed up with water and in some pain. I have no idea how many miles I walked each day, but it was a lot.

Last night I told Shaun that I knew I had gained something like 2 lbs over the weekend. I just knew it. There was no way I for me to have Starbucks cookie crumble for breakfast, and cheese pizza for dinner, with nothing in the afternoon, and no have my body just freak out on me. I drank water like a fish and almost never had to pee. So I know I’m holding some water. But that’s fine, this week I will be fixing all of that! I’m just happy I only gained less than half a pound.

Any hoo I’m going to go dig up some food. Drink a lot of water. That kind of stuff. We will see how the week fairs. 

Week 8 Weigh-in

       First off I’m sorry its been a while from my last real post. I have not fallen off the wagon, I just fell in love with tekkit (a mod pack for minecraft). I have slowed on the walking, I can see that. But that is stopping this week. There is no reason not to pass my 10 mile a week marker when I have a treadmill in my face. So there you go. That is my goal this week, along with sticking with heathy eating and tracking my foods, walk 11 miles or more before next Monday.

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 16.2 lbs

Current weight:                 248.8 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-2lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          13.5%

% Time Complete:          6.1%

Days left:                        757

       Today is the start of week 8 for me, and I’m not only still with it, I’m still losing weight every week, about 2 lbs a week. That’s not a lot, but at the same time it stacks up. So I’m very happy with this trend and I will not kill it by trying to push it more. It I start pushing for 3 lbs a week I may fail and make it harder than it needs to be. Right now it’s not hard at all, I have started to just live this way. It’s nice, and having Shaun’s help and encouragement makes all the difference. I don’t know what I would do without him. Add to that the encouragement of all of you, my friends and workout buddies, it’s no wonder it’s so easy to stick with this. Thank you everyone, I’ve lived the “fat life” for so long that I had started to think that I would never be anything but a fat chick. I may still be a fat chick for now, but I’m well on my way to chubby. Lol one step at a time, right? I’m feeling good today, and I hope you are too! 

Week 7 Weigh-In

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 14.2lb

Current weight:                 250.8 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-2.8lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          11.8%

% Time Complete:          5.2%

Days left:                        764

Here's What's New

This may sound bad but today was the first day I didn’t need to hold my tummy back with my hands to read the scale! The treadmill is a big help. I can set my laptop up there and watch YouTube videos while I walk, or have my favorite music blasting at me. I tried playing minecraft while walking, but when I walk try to walk left or right in the game my body would try to do the same. So I need to train my brain a bit so that will work.

Watermelon is like my favorite snack now, I can eat tons (2 cups) and it’s less than 100 calories. I don’t know about you, but for me 2 cups fills me way up, Shaun eats my last few bites most times. And the watermelon we got at the farmers market is so sweet and yummy, ¼ of it is enough to both of us. I eat so many fruits and veggies now, it’s nuts. I totally get it now, the fruits and veggies fill me up and I don’t fill up on junk, fat, and carbs.

We even when out to eat one time this weekend, taco bell. I ordered the new burrito that they say you’ll love it or they replace it. Well they replaced it. It didn’t have any taste to me, it was just a wet burrito. So I got a crunch wrap, and I couldn’t eat it all. That means my stomach is smaller. That’s a good thing. Now normally I go the thing with the most meat and cheese, I didn’t like the crunch wrap b/c it had so much “green crap” on it. But this time it was the first thing I wanted. And it was so good, and I’m not craving it anymore. So that’s another good thing

O and this SparkPeople.com site is great. I’m totally a mini quest girl, and I love points, and that is what this site is all about. I love it! If anyone wants to join me let me know. My user name is JBrasington on that site. I know, not very creative but it’s me and I’m very proud of my new last name. Feel free to share any sites or tools you have found with me. I’m thinking about writing a mini blog about each one I know about and have tried. That way others can pick the one that would work best for them. I know that finding the program that works for you is important. I think I may have found mine.  Only time will tell.

I walked 10 miles last week, and I did walk 5 days, but not the min 2 miles. But I did have a 4 mile day, so that’s good. This week I will try for 10 miles or more. I would like to pass the 10 mile mark. I have hit that mark more than ones.

I will keep up the new way of eating, I have a few days left on my 14 day plan, and I will keep it up after. I did check out the south beach diet book, it has cooking ideas in it too. I haven’t pulled up the old menus yet. SparkPeole has a menu plan too that makes a shopping list. The only problem I’ve had so far is that we’ve spent almost $300 on food for 2 weeks. That’s a lot. Veggies and fruits are not good after long. so I have to get them weekly, and I forgot some things when we went shopping because I was flustered at have an overflowing shopping cart. And yes we still have food, but we are out of a few things that make the meal. so I need to play with things so that I can use what we have.

Also I got my gummy vitamins today. So I think that will help not only with my health, but with stopping food cravings. I also got a blood glucose tester for not that much. So not I can test when I feel that panic shaky feeling, and know if I need to eat or what, I stopped drinking coffee b/c I get shaky and it feels kinda like that start of low blood sugar.

But the really really big thing, Shaun when ahead and got me the dishwasher! I love him so much. So now that’s less time standing, more time walking. O man lets not play down the treadmill. That is going to make this  for me. so unless I’m sick, there is no reason not to walk. Rain, snow, 120 degree heat, hail, none of that can stop me now. Just my head hurting… but I think that will start to be less. It will never go away all the way, but as my health gets better I think I will have more pain free days.

As for my walk a mile test the results are mixed. So I will try 3 tests, on 3 days, and give the average and I’m not fit enough for the step test. I can’t take my heart rate myself b/c its too fast. But this week I will keep up on the push-ups and crunches too, 

Good night for now.  

week 6 weigh-in

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 11.4lb

Current weight:                 253.6 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

-3lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          9.5%

% Time Complete:          4.3%

Days left:                       771

That’s a big deal to me, I’m very happy. 

Things will be a bit different this week, no goal review. 

The end of the first month

Measurements:

Waist                     47in

Hips                       50in

Thigh                     26in

Upper Arm             14in

Calf                       15in

Crunch Test:

http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness_articles.asp?id=1114

I did this last night, Shaun helped (he could see my hands touch the 6in line). I did 25 total in 1 min. That puts me under “marginal” for my age.

As for my day, I started it off with a sprain toe. Not kidding, I kicked a chair leg hard, my toe went all the way back and touched the top of my foot. I cried so hard, so no walk today. So instead I stopped every few hours and did 4 “girly” push-ups. It was Shaun’s idea, I can do 4, so if I do 4  every few hours for a week, I will get better. So I’m going to try that. I also did some Supine Bicycle Crunches (http://www.acefitness.org/exerciselibrary/241/) that really burn.

As for good news, I got some today. Shaun go me a treadmill! So now there is no reason not to walk. I could walk in my under things if I want. Wall I need is shoes on. So hip hip hooray!  I’m totally going to MAKE a treadmill desk! And the cool part is it only coat $50, we got it from a friend that is moving. Woot!

So tomorrow I will do the 1 mile walk test, and I will make up the step test Friday. I’m a month in, and 8 lbs gone. That’s 2x my goal, and I’m not going to stop now! Woot! Woot!! I could dance (if my toe would let me)!

week 5 weigh-in, review, push-up test

WEEK 4 GOALS(reviewed):

1  Walk 2 miles or more a day

þ  No sugar in my tea (splenda only)

þ  Eat at set times (same time each day)

þ  Eat at the table

þ  Take 30+ minutes at meals, and 10+ minutes at snacks

1  Read to page 44 (Step 1) and pages 70-75, 86-87 from the Cooper Clinic book

þ  Make a shopping list to fallow meal plan from book by Tuesday afternoon

þ  Starting Wednesday, fallow the Cooper Clinic 14 day meal plan

WEIGH-IN:

Start weight:                     265.0 lb

Weight change:                 Lost 8.4lb

Current weight:                 256.6 lbs

BMI Status:                      Obese

The week’s change:

+0.8lbs

Goal weight:                   145.0 lb

% Goal Complete:          7.0%

% Time Complete:          3.6%

Days left:                       777

The Push-up Test

http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness_articles.asp?id=1113

I did 8 modified pushups in 1 min.

That puts me under the “poor” range for strength and endurance in my chest, shoulders, and triceps. 

Change

I need to stop some bad habits now before they hurt me.

1)      Weigh myself one time a week, and only one time a week! I will start weigh myself on Monday mornings, and put the scale out of site until the next Monday. Seeing my weight change every day does not help me in the long run. I may have weighed a pound less yesterday, but in the long run it only maters what I lose in a week, and keep off.

2)      I will measure my waist, hips, thigh, upper arm, and calf monthly. Starting the 1^st of every month regardless of what day of the week it is. I will also go and get a real measuring tape for this today.

3)      Every morning I will log my log my quality of sleep, stress lvl, energy lvl, and self-esteem lvl. I need to be mindful of these and note any patterns I find. This will help me eliminate events that will make this all harder than it needs to be.

4)      Sunday can be a day of rest but cannot be a day off. no more donuts at church, and I will walk/workout at least 10 minutes.

5)      I will shoot for 2 miles a day, for real, not 1.79 miles, 2 miles.

6)      If I feel sick or my head hurts I will still get up and walk for 10 minutes EVERY day, not days off. I have a feeling that once I’m out there I will find that I can walk more.

7)      I will take self fitness tests this week. There are 4, and I will do a “pushup test” Monday, a “crunch test” Tuesday, a “3-minute step test” Wednesday, and a “1-mile walk test” Thursday. Each day after the test I will post a link to direction for each test and how I did.

8)      I will start my days with upbeat music to get me in to mood to move.

That’s all for now. I will post my weigh-in, changes, and last week’s goal evaluating  after my walk. (the music really helps!)

Day 1 dinner

so here's what we have: the oven roasted vegetables are potatoes, carrots, and green beans. I took half a chicken breast and scored both sides, then I rubbed in a dry garlic and herb seasoning. after letting it sit in the fridge for about 2 hours, I put it on 1 of those press grill that made it a big dinner chicken steak. the salad is romaine hearts and spinach with grapes and a raspberry hazelnut vinaigrette, light. and then for dessert is fresh cut pineapple, about to cups worth. a 100% whole wheat roll with "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter". and as much water as I can drink.
I couldn't finish all of my dinner tonight. there are few bites of the chicken left, part of the salad, and about 3 pieces of pineapple. I did sit n eat for about an hour, but I cheated because I have the laptop in front of me. I am full now, but not the kind of full that makes you feel sick. I'm the kinda full that makes you want to go to sleep now. my pm snack is a banana but I don't think I'll need it.
tomorrow I will blog about how I feel about the whole experience. I will also continue on the meal plan with meals like this for the next 2 weeks. if it is something sustainable and I feel good I will continue. to be honest I feel very good about this. I already know what I'm going to be eating the next few days and that makes food prep very easy. I made lots of vegetables for tonight so I will use those of the next few days as well. 
it's time for me to start wrapping up my day. goodnight everybody!

Day 1 lunch

first of the tuna mix, it has celery, apples, and sweet relish. I put 1/4 cup of that on 2 slices of 100% wheat bread. I'm only eating half of the recommended fruit, 1/2 a small apple slice. remember that I'm splitting it into a snack as well.

I have to say this is the crunchiest tuna sandwich I've ever had. but its really pretty good. I thought it would have taken me longer to eat, but I was thinking about other things. the book I'm reading says not to think about other thing, or to do anything other than eat. we grow up in a world where we don't focus on food, so we eat without thinking. that means  we eat when were not hungry, or we finish all of our food without enjoying it. I'm trying to stop doing that.

I remember once when I was a kid and I look down to find all of my m&m's gone. I remember accusing my brother of stealing them white out of my hand. but my older sister told me I had eaten them. I didn't remember eating them because I was watching a show. how much food have I stuffed in my mouth without even realizing it? and how many meals have my scarf down in what seems like seconds?

eating at table reminds me of being a kid a lot. I don't know if it's because I only ate at a table as a kid, or if it's all the toys staring back at me. cthulhu seems to want a bite of my sandwich, while a murloc is glaring at my ice tea. don't forget the cute little reggae unicorn looking longingly at my apples. he doesn't know it yet but there's a zombie sneaking up behind him. yeah I think I was a little distracted.

I'm running a little behind today in house work, a few surprise things popped up. so I got to eat my lunch at home, and I will get walking as soon as I can. I feel kind of bad for not walking yesterday, but I know I got all kinds of exercise. I hope to be back in the full swing of things by next week.

do you remember that really bad migraine I haved? well it left behind a lingering headache all of last week and into this week. I think I have finally kicked it, but I am a little afraid it may come back. I should really look into getting a doctor soon. :)

by the way I will make a quick post with a picture of the toys on my table too.

Day 1 AM snack

so breakfast is between 7:30 and 8 am, and am snack is between 10 and 10:30 AM. that gives my stomach just enough time to digest everything from breakfast, and start to tell me that it wants more.

snack was 1 small orange, 1 light yogurt, and a tall glass of iced tea sweetened with 1 and a half packets of splenda. it took 14 minutes to eat. I split the orange up into each wedge, it had 11 wedges.

sometimes I think parts of my brain never grew up. or maybe it's some parts of my stomach that never grew up. because I know that I could have eaten that orange by splitting into three chunks, it would have been gone in seconds, and I still would have been hungry. but somehow eating 11 small pieces feels like more. so my stomach treated like more, and I start to feel full.

also I've been putting a lot of sugar out of my diet. before anything to do with the words light or diet on the label tasted like crap. all I could ever taste what is the artificial sweetener chemicals. I say chemicals because that's how I thought of them. but now that I don't have a lot of sugar the other forms of sweetener in the world taste great. so this yogurt tasted like a dream. it still doesn't taste like normal yogurt, because it's not an overkill of sweet. but I'm starting to get use to this.

so yes after 14 minutes, that little bit of food filled me up. and I already know what's for lunch so I can pack it and take it with me for a walk. because I really have a long walk today. but I'll save that for later.

Day 1 breakfast

I wanted to start showing you what I'm eating. this is my first full day on a meal plan. this plan is meant to be a breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snack. but with my hypoglycemia I know I need to have smaller meals and more snacks. so I am freaking breakfast in to 2 things, and lunch in to 2 things.

todays breakfast was 1 piece of 100% whole wheat toast, with half a tablespoon of peanut butter and a teaspoon of sugar free jam. a 4oz glass of calcium fortified orange juice, and a tall glass of ice water. small meals and snacks should take 10 minutes to eat. larger meal should take 20 minutes to eat. I managed to stretch this out to 5 minutes. so I will need to work on that still. but I have created a place to eat all the meals and snacks.

this means today will be made up of lots of small blogs with pictures. let me know what you think of this and a rather or not you would like it. I am thinking about taking a picture of each new meal I make.

I also found out I can blog with my phone, and it will let me talk to it and it will record what I say for me. so that will save on some time, and maybe give me a little more freedom about how I say things. I think it will be more true to how I actually talk. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. :) you can let me know in the comments.

Lets be real about this

Yes, when I first found that I lost 5 lbs I jumped for joy. But I’m going to be real about this. I know that I lost a lot in lbs, but not in inches. I also know that I lost that much because I was sick. Remember that Fat%/Lean% loss I talked about? Well not walking, and not being able to eat, means I lost lean mass too. So this week I will be walking and eating again. So next week I don’t think I’ll lose as much. Shaun and I were talking about it and agreed that I may not lose anything, because I’ll be gaining that lean mass back by walking. He thinks I will lose fat, but my total weight may go up a lb or more. I Hope not.

Also, I was a day off on my shopping plans. So today I shop, tomorrow I start my meal plan. I have it all worked out, and I’m excited.  I am also working on a plan for this weekend. We have lots of big plans for this weekend that have us out of the house. So I need to have a plan for things like food at a party, eating out, and eating on the go. I will not be cooking for myself over the weekend, and we will be eating out.  So I need to be ready to deal with that. Portion control, self control, options.

I know I should be taking my vitamins, I paid quite a bit for them. But I can’t keep them down. That part of my brain that says that I have a whole bottle, and I can waste them or the money I paid for them, is the same part that tells me to keep eating when I’m full for the same reasons. So I need to retrain that part of my brain. I want to try the gummies, but first I need to fix this. So I called the number on the bottle and told them what is going on, and counted the pills left and told them I have 42 of 50 left and I can’t take them. So after telling a few questions they are sending me a coupon for a free bottle of ant one-a-day I want, even gummies. Done and done. I can let these go and not feel bad, and no money waist because I don’t have to pay to replace them.

I’m not cheap, but I’m not made of money. That means that money will come up from time to time. I know that for some people a few dollars may not mean a lot. But for me I need to think about where that would be going if it were not going to this. Events like this weekend, we have a birthday party to go to Friday night, and a geek/nerd music show both Saturday and Sunday nights. The shows are $5-$10 per person, cheap. The party is cost of food/drinks, cheap. But the gas to get to Portland, then Salem, back to Portland, and Salem once more, Portland again, and home to Pendleton, that’s not cheap at all. That’s 614 miles! 11 hours and 36 minutes of driving! (So says Google maps) So yes, I will be trying to save money so that we have the gas we need.

What that also means is I need to bring my stretch bands with me so I can do something in the car. That is 11.5 hours of sitting! People don’t think about that a lot, how many hours a day do we sit, at work, at school, at home (on the computer), and in cars/busses. How much time have I spent on my ass? And I have the nerve to wonder how it got this big? Jeez! I want one of the fancy treadmill desks, so that I can walk while I am on my laptop. If I had had one from a teed on, I would be so slim and fit. We need them in schools! If 2 of my classes in high school had them, and I had to walk all that class time, I would not be this fat person.  But they are not cheap. They should be! They should be no more than $100, not $400- $2,000!

 I should start a kick start for fit America! Find a company to make the treadmill desks for cheap, make a fit library/gym, and make it about being fit, not making money off people that need help. I’ve gone to “Free” clinics (they are not free), and all they would do is say I was fat, lose weight and then they would help.  Well why not help me lose weight? Why send me away sick? If I’m sick because I’m fat, help me not be fat so I cannot be sick. Where is the free fitness clinic? So many people want to bitch about all the fat people in the US, but they make getting fit cost a lot too. Why eat fast food? Because a meal can be as cheap as $3, it’s hot, and they put stuff in it to make you crave it. Fast food is a cheap drug, and yes it kills. Yet it’s pushed on very young kids. That is wrong with the country??