Big Box

Today my box of Shelf Stable foods got here. I filmed an unboxing but it is really not the best but it is my first time. I had a friend help out, and I also got a few text messages while we were doing it. In short, don't judge me :3 But it is also an honest look at me, as I am, before I start.

First off, the Order comes with another Fast 5, and I had said I would do that again in 3 weeks. I will not be doing that. I decided to go ahead and open it, and just add the 7 days of meals to the meals I have I will not have the 7 snacks, but I get 7 of each of the shakes, so that is a pay off in my book. I didn't record the unboxing of that because I though it would just be more of the same. But the foods Were diffident. I do have pics of the foods and where they are set up for you. In the end, I have 25 each of Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinners that are Shelf Stable. Plus 18 Snacks, and 7 of each shake. Frozen Food Still to come.

So the F5 actually had 3 Muffins! It also had more bars, so I now have a total of 13 meal bars for breakfast. Of 25, 13 are bars. Even if I like then, that is a lot of meal bars. So I will change that up. I'm adding donuts and muffins and yummy things to the Next month.

yep, 10 meal bars there. I'm stuck on them because there are so many. that too will change next month. But there are a few things I know I like, and a few that I feel may be not to my liking. I am giving them a go no mater what. Online there is a score I can give each food, 1 to 5 stars. I will be keeping track. 

Ok, so dinners are looking good. the Joke here is I worked at a Domino's before this, and now Pizza is not a treat at all. and I have 5 so far. But I also have a lot of good looking things to try for the first time. Its a good round selection too. So far I'm feeling good about this. 

The only thins missing is the popcorn, it was off to the side and I didn't see it until I was putting it all away. But its a good mix of sweet and salty. There were none in the F5, so the numbers will not match, That just means I will skip a nigh snack from time to time. no big deal,

The shakes are the same ones as in the F5 I did before. I looked them up and they are not cheap, so I count this as a bonus. At first I didn't like the ZING shake, but after a few days it was good.

This is how I am going to store and organize my dry goods. The breakfast and snacks stack right now, and if next month that changes I can change how I do it. With less bars I may need both shelves for stored food and move the weeks planned meals into the kitchen.

Right now the plan is to bind the 3 mean meals for each day and store them in the 3 clear bins, and I can choose the snack that fits my mood. 

So I Start first thing in the Morning. I will update in weight (I know it went up... ) and I am planning on filming the first taste of each food. I have a plan in mind as to how to do that. Until tomorrow!

End of day 3

First off, yesterday was a good day. I felt good by the end of it, and I've started taking my gummy vitamins and gummy fiber at night, and its like a mini snack. The food for day 2 was great, and so far there is nothing I would not eat again. But I've looked into ways to make it my self and that is going to be hard. 

Day 3 was a hard day, today I made banana bread with nuts and chocolate chips. I also had a slice, or 2. I know I know... I cut other foods out to try and make up for the calories but in the end I cheated. Now I need to took at it, admit it, and get over it. It was good, and it made a loop hole that I had to deal with for the rest of the day. as so and I had the first bit I found my self talk was making it ok to have more. After slice #2 i realized how bad this was. I then had to have a constant fight with my inner voice, it kept telling me that I already cheated, and that I may as well have a full dinner too. NO! Hell its still going off, telling me that the strawberry shortcake has to be tossed in the trash if it's not eaten tonight, and how bad that is. I just have to keep in mind that if I eat it I'm tossing my heath in the trash instead (I just told my husband that, he tossed it for me and told me he loved me).

I also started walking the dog yesterday, and today I did 20 sit-ups. I know its not a lot, its not the 30 min a day I should be getting, but its a start. I also dance around with Zed off and on all day. But I want to work on getting stronger as well as smaller. Hell, if I stayed big, but were fit with abs and viking arms, I would be ok with that. Being small is not my goal, being healthy is, living to see my grande-babies, having a body that makes me feel good is my goal.

So tomorrow is a new day, I will buckle back down, I will also leave the house for more than just walking the dog. I have to get some things ready for my brother and his son to get here, so I will be moving around a lot. I like the foods, so I enjoy eating the meals that are planned for me, and I am enjoying knowing that I'm doing this right. Yes i messed up today, but that's part of this. 

My hubby and I have talked about the cost of keeping it going with Nutrisystem, and 2 things play into the yes or no of it. 1: Will i stick with it, or if this a faze. 2: Does the cost of the food work for our family knowing we still need to buy my veggies AND food for 2 grown men and 2 growing boys under age 3. 

The first is more about my dedication to my self than anything. I WANT to lose this 100+ lbs NOW. This year, not next year. If i had stuck with it before I would be done by now! This feels motivating! So than my real problem is the cost. 

The plan is $329.99 for 4 weeks, plus another Fast 5 and a free extra week for 3 months (a deal that came with this kit). OK, so for 3 months there would 16 weeks worth of food for about $990, So the first 4  months (a month of extra food) would cost about $9 a day, and about $12 a day after that. So I need to find a way to make up the cost of the $330 a month before I can start. OK, that's a new project for me... why does getting healthy cost so much! 

Here were go again

I'm 30 yrs old and 271.4 lbs female just beginning weight loss journey. I have 100 lbs to loss minimum. My End goal is to weigh 145 lbs again, but my first goal is to loss that first 5 lbs. I'm starting the Nutrisystem Fast 5[1] today, I got my 7 day meal kit [2] at Sam's Club. I did some looking into it and Nutrisystem have a mixed audience as far as I can tell. The people that stick to it 100% do well bet give up a lot. While the people that mix in there home cooked meals and snacks stop gaining, but don't loss a lot and are upset.

Going into this I know its going to be hard, and its not over night, but I want to live a good life, and see my kids grow up, I want to stop feeling like everyone is looking at me and seeing the fat chick and making judgement while I'm playing with my 1 1/2 yr old. Last week a little kid told me I was too big to play at the park, and I wanted to leave, go home, hide, cry, and yell about how mean the world is. But I told her "I promise not to brake anything" and I kept playing with my boy.

My problem is I'v been "working on losing weight" for 8 years, and I GAINED 60 lbs! My husband is thin as a rail no mater what he eats, with a 6 pack to boot without ever working out, AT 32!! Jerk better have passed that to our son. :p Anyhow, I feel alone. I don't know very many people in Nashville (I'm not from here), so I get discouraged easily.

Does anyone have any tips for when I'm ready to give up and eat my feelings?

Day 1 dinner

so here's what we have: the oven roasted vegetables are potatoes, carrots, and green beans. I took half a chicken breast and scored both sides, then I rubbed in a dry garlic and herb seasoning. after letting it sit in the fridge for about 2 hours, I put it on 1 of those press grill that made it a big dinner chicken steak. the salad is romaine hearts and spinach with grapes and a raspberry hazelnut vinaigrette, light. and then for dessert is fresh cut pineapple, about to cups worth. a 100% whole wheat roll with "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter". and as much water as I can drink.
I couldn't finish all of my dinner tonight. there are few bites of the chicken left, part of the salad, and about 3 pieces of pineapple. I did sit n eat for about an hour, but I cheated because I have the laptop in front of me. I am full now, but not the kind of full that makes you feel sick. I'm the kinda full that makes you want to go to sleep now. my pm snack is a banana but I don't think I'll need it.
tomorrow I will blog about how I feel about the whole experience. I will also continue on the meal plan with meals like this for the next 2 weeks. if it is something sustainable and I feel good I will continue. to be honest I feel very good about this. I already know what I'm going to be eating the next few days and that makes food prep very easy. I made lots of vegetables for tonight so I will use those of the next few days as well. 
it's time for me to start wrapping up my day. goodnight everybody!

Day 1 afternoon snack

we have 8oz. of 2% milk, and a 100 calorie bag of popcorn. it was pretty good. the funny thing is at the end of each mini meal I'm full. but by the time the next 1 comes around I'm hungry again. so I wind up tasting it as if it's the best thing ever. I think that's a good thing. but I will still be taking a granola bar with me for my walk just in case.

Day 1 lunch

first of the tuna mix, it has celery, apples, and sweet relish. I put 1/4 cup of that on 2 slices of 100% wheat bread. I'm only eating half of the recommended fruit, 1/2 a small apple slice. remember that I'm splitting it into a snack as well.

I have to say this is the crunchiest tuna sandwich I've ever had. but its really pretty good. I thought it would have taken me longer to eat, but I was thinking about other things. the book I'm reading says not to think about other thing, or to do anything other than eat. we grow up in a world where we don't focus on food, so we eat without thinking. that means  we eat when were not hungry, or we finish all of our food without enjoying it. I'm trying to stop doing that.

I remember once when I was a kid and I look down to find all of my m&m's gone. I remember accusing my brother of stealing them white out of my hand. but my older sister told me I had eaten them. I didn't remember eating them because I was watching a show. how much food have I stuffed in my mouth without even realizing it? and how many meals have my scarf down in what seems like seconds?

eating at table reminds me of being a kid a lot. I don't know if it's because I only ate at a table as a kid, or if it's all the toys staring back at me. cthulhu seems to want a bite of my sandwich, while a murloc is glaring at my ice tea. don't forget the cute little reggae unicorn looking longingly at my apples. he doesn't know it yet but there's a zombie sneaking up behind him. yeah I think I was a little distracted.

I'm running a little behind today in house work, a few surprise things popped up. so I got to eat my lunch at home, and I will get walking as soon as I can. I feel kind of bad for not walking yesterday, but I know I got all kinds of exercise. I hope to be back in the full swing of things by next week.

do you remember that really bad migraine I haved? well it left behind a lingering headache all of last week and into this week. I think I have finally kicked it, but I am a little afraid it may come back. I should really look into getting a doctor soon. :)

by the way I will make a quick post with a picture of the toys on my table too.

Day 1 AM snack

so breakfast is between 7:30 and 8 am, and am snack is between 10 and 10:30 AM. that gives my stomach just enough time to digest everything from breakfast, and start to tell me that it wants more.

snack was 1 small orange, 1 light yogurt, and a tall glass of iced tea sweetened with 1 and a half packets of splenda. it took 14 minutes to eat. I split the orange up into each wedge, it had 11 wedges.

sometimes I think parts of my brain never grew up. or maybe it's some parts of my stomach that never grew up. because I know that I could have eaten that orange by splitting into three chunks, it would have been gone in seconds, and I still would have been hungry. but somehow eating 11 small pieces feels like more. so my stomach treated like more, and I start to feel full.

also I've been putting a lot of sugar out of my diet. before anything to do with the words light or diet on the label tasted like crap. all I could ever taste what is the artificial sweetener chemicals. I say chemicals because that's how I thought of them. but now that I don't have a lot of sugar the other forms of sweetener in the world taste great. so this yogurt tasted like a dream. it still doesn't taste like normal yogurt, because it's not an overkill of sweet. but I'm starting to get use to this.

so yes after 14 minutes, that little bit of food filled me up. and I already know what's for lunch so I can pack it and take it with me for a walk. because I really have a long walk today. but I'll save that for later.