Beginning of Day 7

Its the last day, tomorrow I will weigh in and see if I lost the 5 lbs that is my mini goal.

 Day 4 what good, I was at the Zoo so I packed my lunch. I realized with having my foods set up like this I have no need for fast food, so I have not eaten out one. That in itself is going to be great. On the way home I got a call for a Nutrisystem Rep and we had a short chat. I told him I want to do it but I need to see this week through and that I need to convince my hubby its worth the cost. So I have his number and I will give him a call tomorrow to talk about what we can do to make this work.

Day 5 was good, I found myself hungry when it was time to eat, and full when I was done. I have also noticed that I eat slower and I am taking the time to enjoy my meals and snacks. I do still need to treat snacks as meals, and sit and eat it at the same time, not over an hour. When I do that it messes up when I feel hungry.

Day 6 was a little out of walk. I was up early, and on the go a lot. so my timing for the day was all over the place. but at the end of the day I was ok. and really in the end I just need to feel like I'm doing better and I'm not too uncomfortable. I know I will be uncomfortable, that is normal when you tell your body it can't have what it wants and to do things it does not want to do. Now that I'm not feeling so hungry all the time I'm starting to be more active. Going to the zoo is good because I can walk all day and be really active and not even notice. My son loves it and we will go back and forth to see animals 2 or 3 times. It counts and its fun.

So today is my last day on the Fast 5. Tomorrow I will give my before and after weight, and a recap of how I feel. I will also have a plan for the month of February so that i don't just gain it back. This is it. I'm done being fat.

End of day 3

First off, yesterday was a good day. I felt good by the end of it, and I've started taking my gummy vitamins and gummy fiber at night, and its like a mini snack. The food for day 2 was great, and so far there is nothing I would not eat again. But I've looked into ways to make it my self and that is going to be hard. 

Day 3 was a hard day, today I made banana bread with nuts and chocolate chips. I also had a slice, or 2. I know I know... I cut other foods out to try and make up for the calories but in the end I cheated. Now I need to took at it, admit it, and get over it. It was good, and it made a loop hole that I had to deal with for the rest of the day. as so and I had the first bit I found my self talk was making it ok to have more. After slice #2 i realized how bad this was. I then had to have a constant fight with my inner voice, it kept telling me that I already cheated, and that I may as well have a full dinner too. NO! Hell its still going off, telling me that the strawberry shortcake has to be tossed in the trash if it's not eaten tonight, and how bad that is. I just have to keep in mind that if I eat it I'm tossing my heath in the trash instead (I just told my husband that, he tossed it for me and told me he loved me).

I also started walking the dog yesterday, and today I did 20 sit-ups. I know its not a lot, its not the 30 min a day I should be getting, but its a start. I also dance around with Zed off and on all day. But I want to work on getting stronger as well as smaller. Hell, if I stayed big, but were fit with abs and viking arms, I would be ok with that. Being small is not my goal, being healthy is, living to see my grande-babies, having a body that makes me feel good is my goal.

So tomorrow is a new day, I will buckle back down, I will also leave the house for more than just walking the dog. I have to get some things ready for my brother and his son to get here, so I will be moving around a lot. I like the foods, so I enjoy eating the meals that are planned for me, and I am enjoying knowing that I'm doing this right. Yes i messed up today, but that's part of this. 

My hubby and I have talked about the cost of keeping it going with Nutrisystem, and 2 things play into the yes or no of it. 1: Will i stick with it, or if this a faze. 2: Does the cost of the food work for our family knowing we still need to buy my veggies AND food for 2 grown men and 2 growing boys under age 3. 

The first is more about my dedication to my self than anything. I WANT to lose this 100+ lbs NOW. This year, not next year. If i had stuck with it before I would be done by now! This feels motivating! So than my real problem is the cost. 

The plan is $329.99 for 4 weeks, plus another Fast 5 and a free extra week for 3 months (a deal that came with this kit). OK, so for 3 months there would 16 weeks worth of food for about $990, So the first 4  months (a month of extra food) would cost about $9 a day, and about $12 a day after that. So I need to find a way to make up the cost of the $330 a month before I can start. OK, that's a new project for me... why does getting healthy cost so much! 

End of Day 1

So today was a mixed bag. All in all the Nutrisystem food was good. The oatmeal was the first meal I've ever had that didn't leave me in a blood sugar crash 2 hours later. It tasted good, and I didn't feel hungry. The energizing shake that is the AM snack everyday emphasizes the zing because it has a zingy taste. It was not my favorite but I think I could get used to it. The lunch bar tasted really good, no funny aftertaste or anything. the craving crusher shake that is PM snack for every day was really good, and it did the job. Too bad it was short lived, 2 hours later all I could think about was how much I wanted dinner. The dinner lasagna was amazingly good. It looked like it was going to be gross, but I could totally get used to eating that on a regular basis. And it's been less than 10 minutes since I finished dinner, at first I wanted more. But now that I've had time to sit and drink more water and let my stomach realize that I've given it real food I feel great. I am a little afraid of that by 10 p.m. I'm going to be starving again. I took pictures of all of the food, & I'm reaching out to the local community as well as the online community for people losing large amounts of weight. Right now all I can think about is how much I want to sleep, and I still need to make my husband his dinner of salmon, rice, and corn. All things that I cannot have this week. 

I know that this is still the first day and the excitement will wear off at some point. Some of it were off today as cravings kicked in and hunger strike hard. I just had to keep telling myself that I want to be thinner more than I want to eat that food. That was basically my mantra today.

Anyhow I will keep posting. I'll keep it honest , and I know cheating is only cheating myself. I'll check in again tomorrow.

food pics

Here were go again

I'm 30 yrs old and 271.4 lbs female just beginning weight loss journey. I have 100 lbs to loss minimum. My End goal is to weigh 145 lbs again, but my first goal is to loss that first 5 lbs. I'm starting the Nutrisystem Fast 5[1] today, I got my 7 day meal kit [2] at Sam's Club. I did some looking into it and Nutrisystem have a mixed audience as far as I can tell. The people that stick to it 100% do well bet give up a lot. While the people that mix in there home cooked meals and snacks stop gaining, but don't loss a lot and are upset.

Going into this I know its going to be hard, and its not over night, but I want to live a good life, and see my kids grow up, I want to stop feeling like everyone is looking at me and seeing the fat chick and making judgement while I'm playing with my 1 1/2 yr old. Last week a little kid told me I was too big to play at the park, and I wanted to leave, go home, hide, cry, and yell about how mean the world is. But I told her "I promise not to brake anything" and I kept playing with my boy.

My problem is I'v been "working on losing weight" for 8 years, and I GAINED 60 lbs! My husband is thin as a rail no mater what he eats, with a 6 pack to boot without ever working out, AT 32!! Jerk better have passed that to our son. :p Anyhow, I feel alone. I don't know very many people in Nashville (I'm not from here), so I get discouraged easily.

Does anyone have any tips for when I'm ready to give up and eat my feelings?