Big Box

Today my box of Shelf Stable foods got here. I filmed an unboxing but it is really not the best but it is my first time. I had a friend help out, and I also got a few text messages while we were doing it. In short, don't judge me :3 But it is also an honest look at me, as I am, before I start.

First off, the Order comes with another Fast 5, and I had said I would do that again in 3 weeks. I will not be doing that. I decided to go ahead and open it, and just add the 7 days of meals to the meals I have I will not have the 7 snacks, but I get 7 of each of the shakes, so that is a pay off in my book. I didn't record the unboxing of that because I though it would just be more of the same. But the foods Were diffident. I do have pics of the foods and where they are set up for you. In the end, I have 25 each of Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinners that are Shelf Stable. Plus 18 Snacks, and 7 of each shake. Frozen Food Still to come.

So the F5 actually had 3 Muffins! It also had more bars, so I now have a total of 13 meal bars for breakfast. Of 25, 13 are bars. Even if I like then, that is a lot of meal bars. So I will change that up. I'm adding donuts and muffins and yummy things to the Next month.

yep, 10 meal bars there. I'm stuck on them because there are so many. that too will change next month. But there are a few things I know I like, and a few that I feel may be not to my liking. I am giving them a go no mater what. Online there is a score I can give each food, 1 to 5 stars. I will be keeping track. 

Ok, so dinners are looking good. the Joke here is I worked at a Domino's before this, and now Pizza is not a treat at all. and I have 5 so far. But I also have a lot of good looking things to try for the first time. Its a good round selection too. So far I'm feeling good about this. 

The only thins missing is the popcorn, it was off to the side and I didn't see it until I was putting it all away. But its a good mix of sweet and salty. There were none in the F5, so the numbers will not match, That just means I will skip a nigh snack from time to time. no big deal,

The shakes are the same ones as in the F5 I did before. I looked them up and they are not cheap, so I count this as a bonus. At first I didn't like the ZING shake, but after a few days it was good.

This is how I am going to store and organize my dry goods. The breakfast and snacks stack right now, and if next month that changes I can change how I do it. With less bars I may need both shelves for stored food and move the weeks planned meals into the kitchen.

Right now the plan is to bind the 3 mean meals for each day and store them in the 3 clear bins, and I can choose the snack that fits my mood. 

So I Start first thing in the Morning. I will update in weight (I know it went up... ) and I am planning on filming the first taste of each food. I have a plan in mind as to how to do that. Until tomorrow!

End of day 3

First off, yesterday was a good day. I felt good by the end of it, and I've started taking my gummy vitamins and gummy fiber at night, and its like a mini snack. The food for day 2 was great, and so far there is nothing I would not eat again. But I've looked into ways to make it my self and that is going to be hard. 

Day 3 was a hard day, today I made banana bread with nuts and chocolate chips. I also had a slice, or 2. I know I know... I cut other foods out to try and make up for the calories but in the end I cheated. Now I need to took at it, admit it, and get over it. It was good, and it made a loop hole that I had to deal with for the rest of the day. as so and I had the first bit I found my self talk was making it ok to have more. After slice #2 i realized how bad this was. I then had to have a constant fight with my inner voice, it kept telling me that I already cheated, and that I may as well have a full dinner too. NO! Hell its still going off, telling me that the strawberry shortcake has to be tossed in the trash if it's not eaten tonight, and how bad that is. I just have to keep in mind that if I eat it I'm tossing my heath in the trash instead (I just told my husband that, he tossed it for me and told me he loved me).

I also started walking the dog yesterday, and today I did 20 sit-ups. I know its not a lot, its not the 30 min a day I should be getting, but its a start. I also dance around with Zed off and on all day. But I want to work on getting stronger as well as smaller. Hell, if I stayed big, but were fit with abs and viking arms, I would be ok with that. Being small is not my goal, being healthy is, living to see my grande-babies, having a body that makes me feel good is my goal.

So tomorrow is a new day, I will buckle back down, I will also leave the house for more than just walking the dog. I have to get some things ready for my brother and his son to get here, so I will be moving around a lot. I like the foods, so I enjoy eating the meals that are planned for me, and I am enjoying knowing that I'm doing this right. Yes i messed up today, but that's part of this. 

My hubby and I have talked about the cost of keeping it going with Nutrisystem, and 2 things play into the yes or no of it. 1: Will i stick with it, or if this a faze. 2: Does the cost of the food work for our family knowing we still need to buy my veggies AND food for 2 grown men and 2 growing boys under age 3. 

The first is more about my dedication to my self than anything. I WANT to lose this 100+ lbs NOW. This year, not next year. If i had stuck with it before I would be done by now! This feels motivating! So than my real problem is the cost. 

The plan is $329.99 for 4 weeks, plus another Fast 5 and a free extra week for 3 months (a deal that came with this kit). OK, so for 3 months there would 16 weeks worth of food for about $990, So the first 4  months (a month of extra food) would cost about $9 a day, and about $12 a day after that. So I need to find a way to make up the cost of the $330 a month before I can start. OK, that's a new project for me... why does getting healthy cost so much! 

End of Day 1

So today was a mixed bag. All in all the Nutrisystem food was good. The oatmeal was the first meal I've ever had that didn't leave me in a blood sugar crash 2 hours later. It tasted good, and I didn't feel hungry. The energizing shake that is the AM snack everyday emphasizes the zing because it has a zingy taste. It was not my favorite but I think I could get used to it. The lunch bar tasted really good, no funny aftertaste or anything. the craving crusher shake that is PM snack for every day was really good, and it did the job. Too bad it was short lived, 2 hours later all I could think about was how much I wanted dinner. The dinner lasagna was amazingly good. It looked like it was going to be gross, but I could totally get used to eating that on a regular basis. And it's been less than 10 minutes since I finished dinner, at first I wanted more. But now that I've had time to sit and drink more water and let my stomach realize that I've given it real food I feel great. I am a little afraid of that by 10 p.m. I'm going to be starving again. I took pictures of all of the food, & I'm reaching out to the local community as well as the online community for people losing large amounts of weight. Right now all I can think about is how much I want to sleep, and I still need to make my husband his dinner of salmon, rice, and corn. All things that I cannot have this week. 

I know that this is still the first day and the excitement will wear off at some point. Some of it were off today as cravings kicked in and hunger strike hard. I just had to keep telling myself that I want to be thinner more than I want to eat that food. That was basically my mantra today.

Anyhow I will keep posting. I'll keep it honest , and I know cheating is only cheating myself. I'll check in again tomorrow.

food pics

Here were go again

I'm 30 yrs old and 271.4 lbs female just beginning weight loss journey. I have 100 lbs to loss minimum. My End goal is to weigh 145 lbs again, but my first goal is to loss that first 5 lbs. I'm starting the Nutrisystem Fast 5[1] today, I got my 7 day meal kit [2] at Sam's Club. I did some looking into it and Nutrisystem have a mixed audience as far as I can tell. The people that stick to it 100% do well bet give up a lot. While the people that mix in there home cooked meals and snacks stop gaining, but don't loss a lot and are upset.

Going into this I know its going to be hard, and its not over night, but I want to live a good life, and see my kids grow up, I want to stop feeling like everyone is looking at me and seeing the fat chick and making judgement while I'm playing with my 1 1/2 yr old. Last week a little kid told me I was too big to play at the park, and I wanted to leave, go home, hide, cry, and yell about how mean the world is. But I told her "I promise not to brake anything" and I kept playing with my boy.

My problem is I'v been "working on losing weight" for 8 years, and I GAINED 60 lbs! My husband is thin as a rail no mater what he eats, with a 6 pack to boot without ever working out, AT 32!! Jerk better have passed that to our son. :p Anyhow, I feel alone. I don't know very many people in Nashville (I'm not from here), so I get discouraged easily.

Does anyone have any tips for when I'm ready to give up and eat my feelings?

mini posts ok?

Again, my charts show i need to eat more... that will forever tick me off. tell me i'm fat because i eat too little... bull crap. but ok, i will add more good food to my meals, toss in a V-8 or 3. Also I'll fight my emotions and suck it up. Turn on some music, and move on. anyone have a favored workout song list?

also, are the short burst posts like this ok? With Zed, I don't feel like i can just sit and write out everything in one go. so pounding it out in mini form may end up being what i do. kinda like long facebook posts, but not... i don't really feel like that is the place for this. also i can come here are all my weight loss stuff is just here, no game crap or other posts to weed out to find what i am looking for. sound good?

also, i have been working out more, and now i just want to sleep more. is that going to be the thing now? before i did that, but it turns out i was also making a baby, so idk if this is just another thing. lol

o, also i found where my hidden calories were, i eat a LOT of nuts and peanut butter, any reason for craving nuts? or is that for the milk?

Day 1 AM snack

so breakfast is between 7:30 and 8 am, and am snack is between 10 and 10:30 AM. that gives my stomach just enough time to digest everything from breakfast, and start to tell me that it wants more.

snack was 1 small orange, 1 light yogurt, and a tall glass of iced tea sweetened with 1 and a half packets of splenda. it took 14 minutes to eat. I split the orange up into each wedge, it had 11 wedges.

sometimes I think parts of my brain never grew up. or maybe it's some parts of my stomach that never grew up. because I know that I could have eaten that orange by splitting into three chunks, it would have been gone in seconds, and I still would have been hungry. but somehow eating 11 small pieces feels like more. so my stomach treated like more, and I start to feel full.

also I've been putting a lot of sugar out of my diet. before anything to do with the words light or diet on the label tasted like crap. all I could ever taste what is the artificial sweetener chemicals. I say chemicals because that's how I thought of them. but now that I don't have a lot of sugar the other forms of sweetener in the world taste great. so this yogurt tasted like a dream. it still doesn't taste like normal yogurt, because it's not an overkill of sweet. but I'm starting to get use to this.

so yes after 14 minutes, that little bit of food filled me up. and I already know what's for lunch so I can pack it and take it with me for a walk. because I really have a long walk today. but I'll save that for later.

Day 1 breakfast

I wanted to start showing you what I'm eating. this is my first full day on a meal plan. this plan is meant to be a breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snack. but with my hypoglycemia I know I need to have smaller meals and more snacks. so I am freaking breakfast in to 2 things, and lunch in to 2 things.

todays breakfast was 1 piece of 100% whole wheat toast, with half a tablespoon of peanut butter and a teaspoon of sugar free jam. a 4oz glass of calcium fortified orange juice, and a tall glass of ice water. small meals and snacks should take 10 minutes to eat. larger meal should take 20 minutes to eat. I managed to stretch this out to 5 minutes. so I will need to work on that still. but I have created a place to eat all the meals and snacks.

this means today will be made up of lots of small blogs with pictures. let me know what you think of this and a rather or not you would like it. I am thinking about taking a picture of each new meal I make.

I also found out I can blog with my phone, and it will let me talk to it and it will record what I say for me. so that will save on some time, and maybe give me a little more freedom about how I say things. I think it will be more true to how I actually talk. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. :) you can let me know in the comments.